
Angels Canon Eos 350D
So live that your memories will be part of your happiness.
- Author Unknown -
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Yesterday while catching-up on the reading of my favorite blogs, I was very moved by one post in particular. It really got to me, made my head spin with memories, not so good memories, memories of lost friends, memories of dreams never fulfilled… It got me thinking about my life, where I’m at and where I hoped to be. Life is short, things happen, we can’t control everything. I’ve just spent a couple of days with my brother in London, all that’s happening there also got me thinking…
When I was young I wanted to be a helicopter pilot, join the army and save the world, I then decided I would be a vet, take care of all those poor helpless animals. What I was really doing at that point in my life (16) was swimming. I’ve spent more hours in a pool than I care to remember. At one point I was swimming 2 to 3 hours before AND after school (up to 14km a day), all week… not forgetting Saturday and Sunday swim meets, and if not, more training. I then got this crazy idea that I could make it to the Olympics. God I trained soooooo hard, I had water in my ears even when I wasn’t swimming! All those hours, and I missed the qualification time buy a breath, very disappointing. I then had a water skiing accident, bust my ankle and was out for 4 months, I never made it back, I refused a full scholarship in Texas for a guy I’m no longer with (swimming career over at the ripe old age of… 19), didn’t get into the big shot design school I was aiming for, didn’t stay in the art school I started (same reasons as for Texas) and didn’t have my first child at 24.
But I’m alive, I have no regrets, only memories. I live with a great guy, I finally got my degree (graphic design) and am good at what I do. I joined a volleyball team 5 years ago and have made some wonderful friends. I’m thinking about children again and I’m working on getting my jewelry business going, deadline December 2005 (a bit of a bet going on with my brother and sister). I also have memories, wonderful memories, of loved ones and friends. I may not be what I planed to be, but I’m getting there, I’m evolving, taking my time, getting my priorities straight. When I feel depressed, I think of my friends, the ones no longer with us and I lift my head, I’ll make them come true, OUR dreams, if not for me, for you, for the good times we had together, the silly plans we made, all thoses special moments won’t be forgotten, ever… your laughter fills my ears, music…

Dreams Canon Eos 350D
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Hold fast to dreams for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.
- Langston Hughes -
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My brother gave me a book of quotes and I love it! I could spend hours reading it, does me good. I’ve also been working on my logo (c&c welcome). I like butterflies, I think that they have “graphic potential”, they can be declined in sooooo many interesting and artistic ways (+ they are beautiful and make me happy), I always wanted to start a collection of something, this will be the first butterfly in my collection (Have any cool butterflies to share? Hint, hint).

Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.
- Nathaniel Hawthorne -
(1804 - 1864)